Day 2

28 07 2010

Day 2 started off with E letting go of our hand to go join his friends in the daycare. A wave of relief washed over us and we handed over his food items to the nanny. This is when I made the biggest mistake ever by saying TATA to him. Oh my God, after that there was no stopping his cries. He was shouting and shouting and it got impossible for me to leave. Then I again made another mistake by going back in there to console him. Somehow we managed to leave but still he was in his crying mood. After we reached office, I called them and they said he’s better now and trying to eat his breakfast by watching the TV. He managed to play outside in the rain and managed to sleep there for an hour too. I was somewhat relieved but am still concerned about E not getting his sleep. We had to go out for a dinner last night and he was being so weird there. He’s generally so friendly and happy and he was being so clingy last night due to lack of sleep. Plus we reached home really late and E slept late and was restless the whole night. Plus he started having flu too. We left him home with MIL today so he doesn’t fall sick before they leave but Hubby and I are really concerned. My only concern is, if he is not getting enough sleep then he won’t be my happy baby. Hubby and I are seriously thinking in lines of my dropping work. 6 months is a pretty long time and I will just not be able to tolerate if he has some nature changes.





First Day at Day care

26 07 2010

E had his first day at the Daycare center. Since the MIL is still here but we want him to get used to the environment.

First up, I woke him up at 7:30, got him ready, said goodbyes and packed off to the center by giving him his morning milk. When we reached the place, he was initially shy of being with the other kids but they were a welcoming lot and he soon forgot all about us and went about playing. We left after giving instructions. When I called after an hour, they said he didn’t like the breakfast so we’re giving him some milk. Since it was his first day, it will take just a little time for him to adjust. I called back after 1.5-2 hours later and they said he had gobbled up his lunch and is relaxed now.  We went to pick him up early and he was lying on the floor with all the kids running around. He looked tired as was up early and hadn’t slept till now. As soon as he saw us, he smiled and ran towards us and hugged.

The supervisor said that as a first day, he had been a very good boy which kids like him are not as they get cranky and all, Mashallah. I felt so bad while leaving him there, I felt like crying.

As soon as he got in the car, he closed his eyes and fell asleep exhausted. Hubby took him home and dropped me back at work. On reaching home, he had pooped again and had so many rashes. I’m not sure if it’s because of not cleaning the earlier poop or what. As soon as he reached home, I got relaxed and concentrated on my work which was impossible to do while he was at the center.

I’m really contemplating on what to do. Am I doing the right thing?





a confusing weekend

19 07 2010

I’m having one of those bad days where I see the negative in everything. I’ve been feeling very down since morning and thought if I jotted down my thoughts, maybe you guys would help me see the positive in it somewhere.

As I mentioned before, E came back from his week long trip and the kind of enthusiasm we wished to see upon seeing the parents was not to be. He glanced and then turned another way. Only after a few minutes would he acknowledge our presence and bestow us his smiles. On reaching home and getting over with the normal chores, we went upstairs to put him to sleep. The weather has been extremely hot the last week and with the frequent power cuts, it’s becoming impossible to live with out AC. Plus, our room is in such a location where it is easily the HOTTEST room in summers and the COLDEST room in winters. As soon as we put E to sleep, our bad luck that the power went out and upon enquiry we found out that it was a long fault and there would be no power for a few hours. After the UPS battery went out, Hubby did the most logical thing he could. He picked E up and put him to sleep between MIL and FIL since their room has the most favorable conditions during such extreme weathers. Even when the light came back, hubby insisted that leave E there as our room would take min an hour to cool down. I said ok but did not want to sleep without E another night.

The next day even if I was really glad of having E back, the MIL was discreetly giving hints that the house was not clean enough, the fridge was not stocked enough, and heck the atta was finished too. And I silently went on seething that doesn’t she realize I’m out of house till evening and then am only home for an hour before leaving again for the community center and then get home late bone tired that I need time to figure what needs to be stocked and what not. Then she started cribbing about the maid not doing her job and that I need to check it. Lady, how can I check when I’m out when she comes. I’m very relaxed about the housekeeping and all and she’s quite uptight. Even when hubby asked what was wrong with me I just changed the topic. He doesn’t exactly take such things too well.

And last night again the power cuts so hubby said that lets move the mattress in the in laws’ room and sleep together so we could at least catch a few winks. I was very reluctant about it but gave in because of E as he had all those pores on his face due to summer. While trying to put E to sleep, he started crying as he is not used to sleeping with me so the MIL got the chance to take him with her once again. I felt so devastated. It’s not like she’s trying to take him but I feel like E doesn’t need me anymore. Whenever I’m trying to put E to sleep, if he cries, she takes him from me and puts him to sleep. And since E is with the MIL most of the time, he prefers going to her.

I don’t know what I should feel. I agreed to share the same room so my son could have a better quality sleep. Did I do anything wrong? I sent E for a week’s trip so he could meet the cousins and relatives and more so his nana nani, did I do anything wrong? Too many questions I have which are upsetting me. I’m not telling hubby much about it as his parents will be going to Amreeka in 2 weeks so what’s the point of cribbing when I’ll be getting after 2 weeks? Should I be letting her know that this is my way of doing things and get ready to have a distance between myself and hubby?





Updates

13 07 2010

Hi there, now for the updates I’ll do the bullet points:

  • E is having a great time with the cousin and is running around and playing the whole of SIL’s place.
  • He still refuses to talk to us on phone. I know we should not be offended but it still hurts
  • I’m jealous of all the attention he’s giving to everyone but US on the phone.
  • E would be staying with my parents for a day or 2. My niece is not here so I don’t know how much he’ll there but anyways I was happy to see my folks excited about keeping E with them
  • EVERYONE keeps asking me how can you send this small a baby away from you? How did you have the heart???? Wtf?
  • One good news, I got a great haircut and had highlights done, I look so different now.




Im a lazy ass

12 07 2010

So much for my resolve to blog everyday! Hahah!





Day TWO

9 07 2010

God I was so bored out of my mind not knowing what to do with all the time. Hubby picked me from work and we headed home half expecting to be greeted by a chubby hug and kiss but it was empty L

Anyways, since the food was left over from yesterday we heated it and had our dinner at 6:30. I cooked food for the next night and we left. It felt so weird to be sitting peacefully without someone wriggling around. Got back by 9 and busied ourselves with the next day preps. I took a long leisurely bath without being interrupted by the bang of MAMAMAMA and I suddenly it wasn’t so peaceful.

I’m just thinking when parents send their kids for foreign education, what they must be going through. Its tough being alone after all the time spent with the baby, and it’s very boring.

I suddenly was at a loss to know which program to watch while there was no one to snatch the remote and change the channel!

The whole night after regular intervals I would get up to pat E and would notice no E on the cot! Ah 2 down 7 to go!

*includes last nights update

Update :  Just found out from SIL that E slept quite late and started playing again after taking his 11 pm milk. But then didn’t bother much afterwards.





Day ONE

8 07 2010

I’ve planned on blogging for all the 9 days that E is gone. Dropped off E and MIL to the airport and E is not even bothered to go away from his parents 😦 Well its not like he understands much. He’s just happy to be exploring new places. We bid him farewell and headed to my office. On my way I thought since I’m already running late, might as well get done with E’s day care admissions. Finally, I paid the registration fee and got their brochure. I was glad to see that they are teaching Montessori stuff in school and the place is so homely looking and the maids and all are also very friendly. Fingers crossed, I hope he loves it enough so that I can send him for half the days even when in laws are back. The strength is like 12 and the kids there were also playing and having a good time. Anyway, as told to us by MIL, E slept through the whole flight, Touchwood! And then on reaching SIL places, is happily playing with his cousin. He missed me just a tad little when he went for boarding and all and then in the plane when he started saying Mamma Mamma but All is well now. I just spoke with him and he called out mamma mamma but is more interested in playing with the cousin so I’m glad I let him go. As for me, I’m missing him terribly but am better after hearing that he is not missing us much and is having a great time. There wont be much to do at home so It’ll just be resting from my side.