back again… but no longer a working mother

13 02 2012

im back again… yea i know after a very very long time but this time i have a different identity.
i QUIT my job.
i dunno if i should be happy or sad about it but whats done is for the best currently.
iv been on maternity leave since 5 months (3.5 months after A was born), everyone said the colic would be gone by the time ur kid is 3 months but nopes… the kid drives me up the wall!! i shud have gotten pretty immune to his crying i aint! so i quit since the mil is unable to take care of a hysterically crying baby.. people say the first kid makes u a mother, but in my case, the second one did.
im just managing a little freelance work from home but nothing too much. boy is staying at home a tough job or what. iv been on the other side as well but this is tough, there’s just no break time at all. specially with a kid like A who constantly needs to be either held or rocked and seriously my back will one day give in and i’ll die!
ok so im exaggerating but its just too much work.. .oh well that’s why i’m a mother right?
god iv been away from the blogging world for so long, i so miss u guys!
just trying to find a time when both kids give me time.
about E, well he’s slowly adjusting to his role of being an elder brother. does get jealous quite often but managing. about A, well he’s all us 🙂 not sleeping through the night yet, not even drinking breast milk or formula as much as he should. just very very whiny all the TIME! may be its due to the fact that im accessible to him at all times.
you know when people hear iv left my job for A, they have the nerve to say that with the first you never paid any attention to the kid, only to your job! the nerve!! dammit! urggghh made me so angry…! whtever!
and when i went to give my resignation, the head dint even bother asking why im resigning… his body language was like good riddance. maybe i should nt be thinking all these things as it is depressing me.
tomorrow is the valentines day and im feeling what the hell is the fuss all about. i feel OLD ! im a mother of 2 boys and i feel like a 60 year old.. tell me this phase will pass soon and A’s colic will go away too… plus his not taking enough milk is also driving me crazy. hey did anyone of you started solids at like 4 months or so?
this is so random, il try to be regular and more composed. thanks for hearing me out.. love ya!


im back!

30 11 2011

A turns 1.5 months and its been a tough journey with his mild colic. its truly tough handling 2 kids that somedays i dont even get loo breaks. just today A and E are both asleep and im getting to do this update.
the depression is thankfully better now as mil is taking care of A when i need to put E to sleep and feed him his food else I was getting depressed being in a room. for the time being Hubby sleeps with E and mil and i sleep with A but she’s the one taking care of A so i get my sleep. im truly blessed Alhamdulillah.
A’s been a little colicky since day 1 and after 8-9 pm he would keep on crying till midnight for no reason and it would unnverve us to no end. on top of that E’s jealousy has been increasing but its only natural.
Everytime i find myself crying and getting depressed, i tell myself A wont be an infant forever and this too shall pass. i will inshallah join work in another 2 months, and we’ll be shifting to our new place in another 2 weeks so it will trully be a new begining. thankyou all for your wishes.

1 week update

18 10 2011

I wish I could say that im lovin’ it but…! the depression has set in really quickly. what with E showing all the traditional signs of getting ill and not eating well and whining and crying for everything. The sleepless nights and trying to handle E with equal energy is taking a toll on me. God please give me enough energy to be a better mom to my 2 boys… and help me find some semblence…
A is doing well, and he’s a well behaved baby till now Shuker!

Its a baby boy!

15 10 2011

Hey all, not getting much time now but just wanted to update you all that I gave birth to another baby boy on the 12th of October 2011 at 1:30 am. It was a short delivery but a very very painful one with loads of stitches. I will write the whole baby story asap.. send good vibes and wishes for a speedy recovery my way….

Still waiting….

6 10 2011

39 weeks and STILL WAITING!! Urgggghhhhh! Oh baby please come out sooon!!!

A naughty baby

13 09 2011

Gosh this baby is such a naughty one, just wont let us find out the gender. I’ve been trying since the 5th month to try and find out the gender but to no avail, every time the baby successfully hid between his/her legs!!! i went in again last night for my scan which might be the last one but had the umbilical cord between his/her legs and the doctor tried to find out from every angle but NO!

Looks like it’ll be a BIG Surprise!!! 🙂

11 09 2011

I think I’ll just stop apologizing for my long absence and get on with business 🙂

Okay, first things first, I’m officially Waddling now! :p And walking like a BADMAASH! uggh the pressure and the weight is bending me bad. Since its now the 35th week, I’m just surviving 🙂

I’m on my Maternity Leave so taking it all very easy now. The best part is that E started his nursery and Mashallah he’s Lovin’it! Since my maternity leave and E’s school started at the same time, I’m having a ball spending loads of time with him, pampering him to bits before the new one comes… I still have not decided about resuming work after the baby and don’t intend to decide till I’m settled in.

The house construction is going in full swing but looks like we still have a few things to get done before shifting. Maybe we will shift AFTER the baby.

My gynaec will be on leave till the 28th of this month which means I’ll be 37 weeks pregnant then and just have to make it till then without having to run to emergency. God please I’m really scared and to be bearing the pain and scare with a new doctor will be just too much. Please pray that I have a safe and normal delivery Inshallah.