what an adventure

30 03 2010

I had a blast last night. A friend from my city was here for some official work, we told him we’d pick him up for dinner. It had already poured heavily in the day so we thought he weather was great for an open air dinner. Picked him up and off we went. Ordered a lot of things and folks and E was also with us. Just when the first item of food made its way to our table, we heard and saw the lightning bolts. We prayed hard that it doesn’t rain for a few more minutes while we gobbled our food, but the Lord doesn’t listen at these times :p Anyways, the rain came plonk and within a minute the food was soaked and so were we. We ran for the nearest cover and hubby took E to another cover. Damn we were all shivering and I was scared that E would get wet and catch a cold. Since we couldn’t stand there forever and it didn’t look like it would stop anytime soon. Thus, we had to run to the car which resulted in us getting further soaked, but we eventually reached. And what do we see, NO HUBBY OR E IN SIGHT. Shit! I had the keys with me. I quickly got everyone inside and called up hubby. He said its pouring too hard and he cannot possibly get E to the car without soaking him. Luckily a good soul from the shops bought an umbrella and Hubby and E were under it. They reached the car and E was dry! 😀 What an adventure it was. Since we were still hungry, we got something to eat in the car, dropped that friend at his hotel and rushed home. Ah, what blessing it is to reach our cozy home J


kind of sad…

27 03 2010

I’m kind of sad today. Been feeling like I havent paid a lot of attention to folks and that I should be spending more time with them. I’m feeling so guilty.

I finally went to the doc for my backache and he said apparently its not something serious. I need to eat well since I’m anemic and that I need to correct my posture due to all that sitting in office.

Since folks have found out this thing, they’ve been feeling like they need to help me more and more. Now we all know how it gets when one’s parents pamper us.

I’m in a whiney mood but a crying and guilty and sad kind of a whiney mood. I’m not staying home much of the time because have work and boss is being crappy. I’m feeling guilty because its like i called my folks just for babysitting and that doesnt sound right. i feel they’re bored home and there’s not much i can do about it. we took them to a hill station yesterday but is that really enough? im tired and my back is killing me so i prefer resting at home but that cant be good for them is it?

folks constantly tell me that they were prepared that they’d be home most of the time and its all good and that they are enjoying with E but guilty me, what do i do for my head?

another factor is that i know my dad is at his best when he is working, he gets sick when he is home for a long time so this adds to my guilt even more.

I think i should really take them out next week as they will be gone after that 😦 Damn 24 hours is too less to enjoy with your parents 😦

I really thinking my going home for 2 weeks vacation is a better option.

7 Deadly Sins

25 03 2010

I’ve been tagged for the first time. Let’s see 7 Random things about me…

  • I bite my nails, whenever I’m thinking something. It’s just a bad habit because the last I remember, I have pretty nails ONLY at my wedding, after that I’m done beautifying myself. These days I’ve got no nails so I’ve been cracking my knuckles. People find it so irritating but I juts cant help it.
  • I’m obsessed with buying new and latest clothes. I would go to my hometown, shop till I drop and then dump all the unstitched clothes in my cupboard till the fashion goes away. If I see a new style, I HAVE to get it. The excitement just fizzles out once I get it home. This year’s resolution is that I will use all those unstitched clothes before getting any new stuff.
  • I try to dress up when I’m feeling down. I will sometimes put on my best suits, a darker shade of lipstick and blow dry my hair when I’m feeling a little sick.
  • I always imagine like I have a very rare and drastic disease or that I have the worst case of depression and that NO ONE understands me or cares for me. I blame Hubby for not taking care of me. The fact is that even if he does ask me to go to the doctor, I would say “It’s OK, I’m better now”. Poor Hubby!
  • I always, always say a silent prayer of “Thanks to the Lord” when I see someone who is less privileged. The urge to say this prayer is much stronger now since I gave birth to this gem.
  • Whenever we are out, like me and hubby and we’ve just come out of the movies, I will ask him “What next?” I never want the exciting stuff to end
  • I almost always end up messing my best days with a FIGHT. Be it valentines, anniversary or birthday, I just end up crying at the end.

I tag the following:

A Baby Story

BoHeMiAn RhApSoDy

Chronicles of Dee

Why all things lead to chaos

The Song of Life

My Sunshine

If these people have already been tagged before with this one then I apologize, I’m NEW here 😉

Good times

24 03 2010

Folks are staying,In laws gone, grandmother is getting better Alhamdulillah…

Just one catch though, E is quite frustrated on not seeing daada daadi. I hope he adjusts well to Nana Nani.

Other then that I’m having a ball, Mashallah.

Happiness and Chaos

22 03 2010

As I wrote earlier, my folks have come to see me and oh what a joy it was! I was so so so very excited about it and I feel that it got jinxed! Like they say “meri khushi ko nazar lag gayi!” Here is how the unfortunate set of events took place.

There was still chaos in my city, we got stuck on the road to airport, but still somehow managed to get there. Then when folks landed, they said my grandmother was ill, perhaps it was food poisoning and she started vomiting just when folks were leaving. Tension! Then we called home and asked how she was doing, we found out that she had vomited again and was very weak. My father was so worried. My brother and bhabhi took her to the doctor and she was dizzy there and after a while they said she was still not tolerating food.  I felt like crying because I was torn between wanting my folks stay there, or send them back because daddi was so ill, but I stood strong. I kept telling myself all would be well, she would be fine. Plus my mother told me another thing that depressed me. She told me that my bhabhi was very much against my folks coming here because it was not convenient for her and that daddi was not their responsibility. I was hurt and upset and worried about quiet a few things:

  • I was worried about my grandmother since she is very old and very weak and if she is not tolerating food then it is a thing to be scared about.
  • I wanted my parents to go back so that if grandmother is missing my dad then she can get well soon.
  • If my folks go back that means my baby E would be alone, which meant I would have to take off from work for at least a week. Thinking that I called my boss and got the most disheartening and disappointing response. He gave me the impression that I NEVER complete my assignments on time and I cannot be entrusted to long term assignments. WHAT??? In my almost 3 years at this place, I have NEVER delayed ANY assignment and look at his audacity when HE is the one who fails to compile the report since he is busy with PEOPLE while my data is ALWAYS at his desk on time.
  • I was hurt because I felt that being a DIL, I had no problems letting my MIL and FIL go to USA for 6 whole months when I was pregnant. But my bhabhi was not letting her MIL come to meet me after 3 whole years! I was hurt because my bhabhi and I really get along and when I found out what was going on behind sweet words, I was very sad.
  • I didn’t want to send E away for 10 days with my MIL and FIL because I would miss him, plus I wanted them to enjoy their time there without any responsibilities.

With so many things in mind, I broke down and cried so hard in the bathroom. I called up hubby and told him to go get the flights changed and get E’s ticket as well while sobbing. He didn’t know how to respond.

I was worried, sad, disappointed and hurt.

Update is that grandmother was given medicine to put food down, it worked and she was able to tolerate a LITTLE food. The quantity was less but if she is able to put down even a little, that is an achievement. Brother and bhabhi said no need to send parents back as daddi is improving and on bed rest. Spoke with bhabhi just now and she sounded well. ALL is well! I can’t tell you guys how relieved I am. Perhaps I am just too numb to actually feel any happiness.

Never the less I am satisfied with the present and in the future I will NEVER get worked up for anything related to my family.

Being Twenty Something

19 03 2010

a forward…

BEING TWENTY – SOMETHING They call it the “Quarter-life Crisis.” It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn’t know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don’t recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren’t really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. You look at your job… and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn’t. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren’t a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself… and while winning the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

Just a few hours…

19 03 2010

Just a few hours left for folks to come, Im so excited! 🙂